The Battle Within

Self-doubt and the inability to let go of past decisions and experiences are all too real. People from all walks of life face adversity, make mistakes, face battles and do so much in their lives that at a certain point it starts to pile up mentally, and emotionally and even affects you physically. Thoughts begin to swirl inside more frequently, you hold a heavier heart, and your body feels weak, malnourished, and not taken care of. You begin to feel guilt, anger, disappointment, or worst of all lost and wondering why you? what have I done? or why was I like this? The truth is you made a decision being a person at a different time with a different set of circumstances. You suffered at a point in time because someone made a bad decision, or you just happened to have been a part of an unfortunate set of events. You failed at something because it wasn't in your field of desire or expertise, or maybe it wasn't the right time. So many factors and sets of circumstances that affected all those decisions and experiences but they do not define the person they helped mold. Those past experiences and mistakes should not take hold of your current day self. They were simply helping mold and implant the strength your current self requires. They were helping form the mind, heart, and attitude your present-day self would require. 

You must learn to let go of the negativity in the emotions of the past, and use it in understanding it has brought you to today. All the past has done and where it has led you has been to bring you to today. You are stronger, you are wiser, you are more aware, and you have gained so much knowledge and insight from your past. You are no longer the person that was a part of it all, all the negativity and suffering is not who you are, it is not who you will be. You are not damaged, you are not horrible, you are not a POS, and you are not worthless. You have been forged, you have faced defeat and are still standing, and you have learned from it all. You must look high, stand tall and understand that it all has led you to this very moment, that it was you because you can carry this weight, you have the ability to use this knowledge these experiences and show the world how you cannot be held down, that no matter what path is thrown before you, you will continue to grow, to be strengthened, to become greater. It is all within you to understand that yes there were unwanted and unforeseen periods of problems and mistakes, yet here you stand tall ready to face what is yet to come because no matter what you grow and grow until there is nothing that can stop you. You are greater than the sum of your past, you are greater than the events to come, and you will not be defeated.